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it was fucken nasty some black guy on the train...trying to talk to me. he was cross eyed and he was like hey ma and i looked at him like where the fuck r u looking lol
and he got his daughter to ask me for my phone number i was like um no its ok leave me alone
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i feel so disgusted
seriously man..fucken nasty
he scared me with his weird eyes too
then some lady on the train i didnt no started talking to me about how he shouldnt be doing that. some white lady. ugh. i fucken hate black ppl. and worse of all, im dark skinned so its quite contradictive lol. but im not black. ugh. im sorry for saying that. but seriously. that was just fucken nasty. my god. i feel so UGH
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well hmm just got aol 9.0 well actually got it earlier this afternoon but didnt sign on until now...yay i get to see jason on monday...finally..its been too long of a week without seeing him heh...hmm i think the day before yesterday me n him talked from like 11 something until like 5am and he had to go cuz he was sleepy...i thought we'd be rulers of the wake but oh well...we always usually talk until like 3am anyway or something....hmm i didnt call brad i forgot..well actually i woke up too late..i woke up at like 5 today well earlier than that but didnt get outta bed until that now im only online cuz jason had to burn a lotta cds for his uncle or something so we only talked for like less than 10 minutes...i have to call him later..its like 12:02am now...ima be on for a while heh...anyway gotta call bidania too cuz shes in D.R. n she emailed me and gave me the number of where she was so ill be calling her and then i might call brad...hes in west virginia...whats in west virginia? *thinks*....hmm nothing..anyway listening to system of a down now...wow im listening to songs i havent heard in a while cuz i just found sum cds i havents found in a while..i was wondering where their cds were hehe ^_^ i lose everything...anyway i was listening to orgy before them and then Goldfinger...and now i will end this entry with a quote from GOLDFINGER.....
"99 dreams i have had,
in everyone in a red balloon,
it's all over and i'm standing pretty,
in the dust that was a city,
if i could find a souvenier,
just to prove, the world was here....
but here it is, a red balloon,
i think of you and let it go."
-----"99 Red Balloons" by GOLDFINGER
( i forgot how much i had loved that song but thank god i found all these cds again *_* )
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........*^GREAT DAY TODAY^*........
SAW JASON....that was very fun...he wants to get back together but mm hmm..same as before...i dont really know...maybe hmmm ^_^ hehe....im thinking about it
(*)_(*) so im outta this world (%) {thats suppose to be the world and a continents lol...u no NA and SA... hehe...so seeing him today was very very very nice...it was cool...hmm now im waiting for my phone to recharge so i can call him...in like a minute i will...yea he told me he wanted to introduce me to his family in queens cuz i was SUPPOSE to a while ago!!!!! lol but he said he wants to introduce them to me as his gf and im like we're not dating again and hes like not yet hehe...ahhh hes so cute hehe....well gots to go call him back now...
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* * * * ..<^>Stars everywhere<^>..
(for u stupid people...thats because im daydreaming and im 'outta this world' because im not 'on earth' cuz im thinking and im in LA-LA land....ehhh if u can get that)
*FLOATS AWAY ON A BALLOON* bloop
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ohhh okay...i figured viv would be talking "Finding Nemo" cuz shes like that...(weird)....shes like VIV N NEMO on her profile lol...but i just wanted to make sure..and shes like its a fish dammit!...lol oh well..taking some thing here a career finder guide...to see what career is best for me...no no..not a Quizilla quiz....this is actually a real thing.,...hmm have to go to some interview on friday for something dunno what...lol i shouldve asked...but i was half asleep...oh well we'll see then..that was really stupid but okay...GONNA GET MY NEW GLASSES AND CONTACTS...OH YEA ^o^ uh huh....
...hmm thinking bout something...im very confused at the moment..jason wants to get back together but i dunno....i really really want to but uhh...i dunno..just not so soon i guess...DONT CARE WHAT ANYONE ELSE FUCKIN SAYS...ITS MY DECISION....hehe or as viv would says HEHEHE'z ^_^....something like that i dunno heh...well anyway...i started drawing again....WHY THE FUCK DID I STOP?!...*smacks self on the head* STUPID SELF....heh my mom said that i should get into animation or something like that cuz im good and thatd be a cool job...hmmm i SHOULD do something with drawing..so many things but which one??...well we'll find out soon with the career finder shit lol...
gots to go...
hmmm...
*<3*
*<3* ^_^ *<3*
*<3* ....* T* H* I* N* K* I* N* G*....
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lets see....wednesday,spent the day with jason..that was fun....umm was gonna go sleep over at bidanias house yesterday but then i didnt feel well so i didnt go....hmm wednesday was really nice ^_^ hehe....hmm today i gotta go pick up my new glasses and contacts later on...jasons coming over tomorrow..so thatll be...uhhh.....InTeReStInG *wink wink* (*)_(*)<^StArRy EyEz^>.....itll be a VERY GOOD INTERESTING...i was thinking about alfredo today..i saw someone on tv who looked like him and i was wondering how hes doing..since hes going thru basic training now and all lol..lmao...i can just imagine that..him talking about God 24/7...hmm i wonder what he'll look like when he comes back...cuz he'll be going to school for senior yr. after the training and then leave to California i think...cuz he wants to be in a "rock band" lol what an asshole...but i mean that in the best way...hmm my mom wants to invite him over when he comes back to talk about basic training but i dont c what 4 if by then franchesca will have almost a month in it...she could just watch the history channel to c what basic training is like..man i cant imagine my sis in the gas chamber...with snot and vomit coming outta her mouth and nose...heh thatll be cool..ill write to her a lot then..just to bother cuz she said not to send a lot of mail cuz they throw it at u and if u dont catch it..u gotta do something...i forgot what..but hey..lets make her suffer a lil more...well cant wait to c jason tomorrow..man i gotta go see the guys on monday or something..i havent seen em in a few days...well gots to go heh
whoa just saw vivs profile...i think she got a bf...WHO THE FUCK IS NEMO?!....heh gotta call her cell but shes always playing handball..lookin for mike...oh well still
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<3 * ^_^ <3*
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WHAT IS LOVE?...BABY DONT HURT ME............
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lets see..spent the day with BIDANIA..(there happy?)..heh umm my friends jason,izrael(nathan),brian,nazaret(naz),issac and eduardo and some other kid...dont know his name.,..that was very fun..too many things to type...each time i hang out with them..i get home at almost 10..i would stay later but bidania leaves by like 9,and brian and nathan..i mean izrael..i always call him nathan..but his real name is izrael..i like that name...anyway thet have to go home...and issac's been left by then probaly like before 9...so then naz leaves and so do jason so whats the point...this time yesterday jason walked me...we had an interesting convo..god i hate him..its not fair..he has his own place and his parents pay for it..but hey he deserves it..hes a nice guy...guess his parents trust him that much..he seems really smart too...cares a lot for everyone...always telling them not to do stupid skate tricks...aww and poor issac hurt his ankle yesterday he had a cut on it...me n him were talking a lot...he said hes my son now..so he keeps calling me mom and stuff its cute...hes so adorable and sweet..but the one thats most adorable is izrael but he thinks hes ugly and even the guys were like ure not ugly..see listen to it from a girl..he doesnt think he is but he is..he has nice eyes but i gotta admit jason has the most beautiful eyes..theyre like greenish sorta...and natural lol...n e way..i was suppose to see jason (ex jason)yesterday but he had to go to barnes n nobles or whatever with his mom and sis..REMEMBER J-J...I GET TO PLAY WITH THE CALLIGRAPHY SET TOO!!!....U BETTER BRING IT...but nothing can help your handwriting now lol j/p...its not THAT bad heh...so he said today but he didnt wanna go out because hes shedding lol...i mean peeling or w/e...hes peeling everywhere on his body but if u just wouldve listened and bought sunscreen..none of that wouldve happened...anyway so he promised tomorrow...so w/e...today i havent gone out yet but if bidanias at the park with rina and the guys then maybe ill go later like at 6 or 6 something...well bidania kept calling me and waking me up all day..i mean yea i no i shouldve been up by 2 30 but come on..i was tired lol its okay u needed talk so its cool...well then i was talking to exjason and chuckie online (im just saying exjason so u dont confuse him with my friend jason cuz i dont like "iann" and exjason noes that and he knows which one i like but hes not telling anyone cuz he wants to save it for his son so he doesnt get annoyed by it or w/e..like i do heh)....anyway...xjason just left a little bit ago..we were talking for like more than 3 hrs last nite til this morning cuz it was past 12 midnite...so yea..we talk too much now lol...nah i dunno..well ima go...get offline...watch tv..think about stuff...oh yea i forgot...it was funny what happened to brian yesterday...izrael was standing with his arm out leaning against something sorta and brian was skateboarding so i guess he thought maybe izrael knew and he would move but he didnt so brian just smacked right into his arm and fell to the floor it was funny...then jason came on his skateboard and was on the ground too..it was very funny..had to be there...oh well..im glad theyre my friends now...its funny..we havent known each other for long but we've made it a usual hangout of meeting up like each day and just chillin and stuff..and everyone is so close with each other already and it hasnt even been a week..so its cool..anyway...YAY my birthdays next wk...woo hoo!*big smile*...heh okay...well off i go...
*goes to the top of the building...* hey!!.. i CANnnnnnoottt fly!!!!...ahhhh!!!
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yup yup..me and jason broke up...hmm surprising what a few words can do to a person...only a few people should know that this means...well actually just jason should heh...
anyway...umm earlier that day i made some new friends... Issac/Isaac W/E lol,umm this kid name jason,nathan,and nazaret. Isaac/Issac is 15,Jason is 19, Nathan is 15 too i think, and Nazaret is 15..one of their friends is brian but i already knew him so that doesnt really count lol..theyre really fun to hang out with..theyre nice,funny,cool..just a whole lotta things..i got to talk to nazaret a lot...or Naz as they like to call him..they all have their lil nicknames..like they call nathan izrael,nazaret is naz...i dont really know brians or jason lol..or issac but i know they have..i just cant remember rite now oh well..
because of what happened with jason ive been really sad about it...i really loved him but uhh...guess that doesnt matter now...i always tell him to do whatever he wants...so i guess i should too...so even tho hanging out with those guys is fun im still very depressed and ill like just keep away from them and be all anti social for a bit and ignore everyone but then i got to talking with naz again cuz he kept trying to talk to him so i figured what the hell...give it a try...hes a really nice guy...he gave me his number so we talked on the phone yesterday until a lil before 1...and all of us climbed over the gate into the school yard to hang out cuz it was less crowded than the park and cuz bidania couldve stayed out longer than..just like an hr and a bit tho but still...and i was just talking to naz instead of everyone else..cuz he wanted to talk and go somewhere more private which was like what...15 ft away from everyone or something lol but still..so we were just talking for like an hr and half by ourselves in the dark because of that stupid tree lol but still...it was very interesting and cool...i told him i hated guys now because of jason and what happened and he was like damn jason hehe...and i almost smacked him cuz he was walking me home and outta nowhere he just slapped my ass and im like ure so lucky i wouldnt smack u with my keys now so i just hit his chest and he fell off his skateboard a bit...i dunno...they all keep telling me to kiss him and i just say no stop telling me that..and then naz got the guts to ask me to make out with him but i just said no sorry...i dont know u like that...
i dunno..i still have feelings for jason i guess and even tho we're not together..i still dont wanna do anything with another guy but i should be moving on i guess..i dont think we're gonna get back together..we're just *sigh*.."friends" now...DAMMIT...I WILL WRITE ABOUT THIS ON THE FUCK U LIST THINGY....LET OUT ALL MY FEELINGS..SO IF URE INTERESTED ABOUT WHAT IM GONNA SAY FUCK U TO..CHECK IT OUT THEN...
well im probaly gonna hang out with the guys and bidania tomorrow...most likely..those r my new summer friends..like that i dont stay cooped up in the house all summer like stupid pigeons...but i dunno..i havent been feeling too good lately..ive gotten this stupid high fever and feeling sick and nauseous and i havent eaten a lot...like i only ate once yesterday..i just wasnt hungry...i couldnt even go to sleep cuz of my stupid fever and cuz of how sick i was feeling...*sigh* people tell me being single is not that bad and i dont need a b/f but its not because of that that im like this people!.its not that i dont wanna be single and i no i dont need a b/f...its that im not with jason..so get it thru ya fuckin headz!!!...
well now im talking to jason...this fucking sux..."so close,yet so far"..now im gonna write in the fuckulist community thing...so off i go...*dun dun dun duu,aww fuck it? who cares?!*...thats all i have to say for now...
well...no tricycle...no red rum..fuck it all...
ohh to fuckulist i go!bloop bloop
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friday:
chilled with bidania..had ice wars..i think it was friday...it was fun tho..i hadnt hung out with her in a while..that was cool..but then i had to go home to do the laundry..fuck..otherwise i wouldve stayed until later..not until just 5 something or 6 or w/e...
saturday:
dont remember much about saturday...at all during the day lol..so w/e...hmmm..started to talk to jason at like 10pm sat...until....
sunday:
...until a little before 4 am sunday...wow..we talked for like 6 hrs straight...didnt feel like that...never does..well sunday i talked to jason a few times..it was cool..i stayed awake all day saturday and it was 10 am sunday and i hadnt slept at all..but i HAD to go to sleep cuz after me and jason talked for a bit at 7 30am for a bit he told me to go to sleep even if i didnt want to...*crosses arms* stupid...I LOVE YOU..hehe...anyway then it was 8 40 something and he told me to so i laid in bed at like 9 and i couldnt fall asleep until like 10..then i woke up at like 12 stayed awake for a bit..went back to sleep and woke up at 4..i couldve stayed awake all of sunday too if jason hadnt told me to go to bed...*shrugs* oh well...then monday i dont really remember...hmm tuesday dont remember either..talked to jason for a while..since like 12 something until almost 3 am...that was cool as always...i guess that counts as wednesday too
wednesday:woke up at 3 30 almost..i mean...i wake up a lot but thats the time i actually stayed awake cuz some guy who works on the building was checking something out here...i talked to jason later and he said thats around the time he was gonna call...i think..he said he was gonna call me at 10 am but he nos my routine of waking and sleeping...man.,.i gotta call my friends..i told them id visit each of them at least once this summer...i gotta get their numbers from bidania..ive lost like everyones number cuz i put it on like a piece of paper and it gets lost...oh well...talking to jason online now..we were talking on the phone for a while before..but so i dont waste his minutes i came online cuz hes on in his cuzns house..carlos' house i think..talking to jasmine now too..jasons such a sweetie..he was looking at phone plans for me...i didnt ask him to now..but he noes im suppose to be looking at those and i really havent so he does for me..so thanx jayjay...lol like your mom says..hmm oh well...I LOVE U JASON..i guess ill keep talking to u now...
hmm i noticed i really love classic rock and old music like duwops and what not...hmm oh well..
oh well..u should no from my mood that ive been talking to jason a lot *wink wink*..cant wait to see him..its been a long week without him...well a few days lol..but im use to seeing him a lot..and now i cant...FUCK..
*rides away on tricycle around jason..slaps his ass and pedals faster...*HAHA
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yesterday
yesterday i was with jason..and that was great..as always..we were gonna go to the movies but then i changed my mind and i felt bad cuz he bought an unlimited for nothing and its not a big deal but i still felt bad..but it was good we stayed anyway...we laid down together and he sorta fell asleep...and we were just like together like falling asleep and that was very nice..i enjoy being with him so much..i cant explain how it makes me feel..but hes just so amazing heh..and we did other stuff but like he tells me..im gonna keep it PG 13 not X RATED so...i cant write the other stuff here...so anyway...on to tomorrow...
today
today was actually a nice day..i went to school at like 8 40 and it was nice seeing everyone..i didnt notice how much i had actually missed them all..not miss miss but miss just seeing...i got my grades..i passed everything with an 80 or higher..lets c..art 80...english 80...german 85...research 90...global 80...phys ed 85...liv env 85 and for labs i got an S...as always...but oh well..no failing..and on my regents i got a 78..which is good...a lot of people got that and most got like 71 or 67 and shit too..my friend jenny (jasmine) failed..she got a 47 or 51 or something i dunno..but she failed and she has to go back in august to take it again and then jasmine f got a 67 and she was worried cuz her parents always want like above 95s from her but earlier she told me her mom said she was actually proud of her..maybe they realized how unfair they had been to her..she gets like an 88 and shes punished...well anyway then we were just hanging out in school for a bit...i saw louis..looking good as always lol ..i think i may be developing a small crush for him..i mean i always have..before i even really like knew him enough to say hi to him and stuff i thought he was kinda cute and so nice and we have stuff in common..so..i think i may be calling HIM during the summer..i dunno..but when he hugs me..i liked how that felt..it feels nice..hes very sweet...and his friend is so adorable...i fogot his name..but hes adorable because he looks like a little kid but hes not..and he plays magic a little which is cool but we dont really ever talk about that..i hadnt seen him in a while..then i saw juan carlos and i was gonna call him but i forgot his name..took me a long time to remember and i remembered after he left..so w/e...and then i saw Andrew with his girlfriend..they kinda remind me of me and jason...but anyway..i liked andrew before a bit but never told him and thats y i had begun talking to him and shit but it doesnt matter..i got jason and im happy with that...anyway after hanging out in school for a while we hung out a bit after school...then me n bidania went back uptown and we hung out here too..that was nice then i came home and i fell asleep after like 2 and a half hrs or w/e heh..it was hot...but then i was cold...lol i dunno...then i was calling jason but he didnt pick up and i kinda figured hed be at the movies with josh and them cuz he told me he might go with them today so i was debating with myself wether or not to call mario...i dialed but then i hung up right away...i get so nervous when im gonna call him..i dunno y..i just get really really nervous...but w/e...i wanna call him soon..i have really spoken to him in a while..he was nice to talk to and i wanna talk to him again...well anyway and then after this afternoon my day got pretty boring..i dunno if im gonna go to the movies with wandaly and them cuz they wanna c charlies angels but then jason also wants to c that and we were gonna go on saturday...so i think ill just go with jason..id rather go with him than them...oh and i got a ring today from bidania..its very nice..THANK YOU...its 2 hearts...its so cute...well anyway..back to be4..my day got boring after i fell asleep..my neck hurt when i awoke..but anyway then i talked to jason and it made my day seemed better except for one or two things...well thats all for now i guess...i told everyone id visit them at least once during the summer and i want to..maybe more than once...i wanna just keep in touch with everyone...well i think i will stop writing now..dont care too much for this journal stuff anymore..its okay but u no...ehh...
*rides away on tricycle and rings bell* RED RUM RED RUM....
I love you Jason..with all my heart and soul..XOXO *hug*
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| 1angeluv | | Magic Number | 11 | | Job | Serial Killer | | Personality | A Worrier, I Worry That I Worry Too Much | | Temperament | All Bark, No Bite | | Sexual | Whatever, Whenever, Whoever | | Likely To Win | A Nobel Prize | | Me - In A Word | Belligerent | | Colour | | | Brought to you by MemeJack |
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*sigh*...so happy...i got to be with jason yesterday for a LONG TIME...wish it couldve been even longer tho..he stayed to a little past midnite...*sigh* that was wonderful...just everything we did was great..and i wont get into detail cuz i dont think i can write about that here...but i will write the things other people can read about..we went to the movies and saw bruce almighty..that was funny..not ALL of it..but it was funny...hehe i love jason...*starts thinking about him even more*...anyway..still sick..i woke up at 3 17 today...wow...i cant believe i slept til then..ive slept more than that but i had woken up at 11 saw the clock and then woke up at 3 and i thought it was only 12...it wasnt even that brite outside..i think...well anyway..my sis got home at like 3 in the morning so i had to wake up and give her a message from her friend terrel or terell or whatever...cuz hes leaving to korea tomorrow..he put up a convo. with me which was funny..i dont even know him but w/e...thats okay..and i was talking to jason around then too..around 12 something...a few times but his stupid phone kept disconnecting the call or whatever and it was like every 5 minutes or something...but then when i would call him it'd last a little longer i think..and i had a fight with my mom again..we fight like every day a few times..god shes so fucking annoying sometimes...but lets not get into those gruesome details..well not much to write..just talking to this guy chris, vivian and my friend jason...like he says..theres too many of them...well anyway jason told me he wants to change his name but not to iann so i told him to change it to nosaj but people would pronounce it no-sah-j...when its really pronounce no-say-j..or whatever...i dunno...id still call him jason tho...im too use to it..kinda like him calling me franki..before when we just met he called me by my full name but i kept telling him to call me franki so he got use to that so i dunno..i have nothing to write..i gotta call my friend jasmine now for some info on a rough draft thats due tomorrow..so *sigh*..i wanna c jason again heh...i wish we could live together or something..that'd be great..heh well ima go..I LOVE YA J..muah
*rides away on tricycle and rings bell*
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YESTERDAY..5.28.03:
lets see, it was fun as pretty much usual except for one incident which is all over the news now..two kids threw a stool out a window and it hit a pregnant woman that was walking by on the head. shes in critical condition in the hospital but the baby's okay. god those kids are so fucking stupid. i know them too, they were in my class but it happened in an empty classroom and now the teacher that was there the period before is getting charged also and i find that so fucking wrong. it pisses me off. that teacher is such a good teacher and theyre filing disciplinary charges against him. it wasnt his fault. that classroom is always open and he doesnt even have the key to it. its so wrong!!... FUCKING BASTARDS!!!!...i feel so bad for the kids and the teacher...they didnt think of the consequences of their actions. but because of that i had german class for like 3 periods...its suppose to end at 11 38 and it lasted until 1 because of that unfortunate incident...i fell asleep for most of the actually real period as always and then at 1 i had to stay in the auditorium until 1 30 because my next class was on the 6th floor and they werent allowing people on the 6th floor because thats where they threw the stool from..then each period after that was 30 minutes until 3..which made school longer than usual..not by much but still..that sucked..but besides that it was a good day...i was talking to the new boy in my class...Abas..hes nice..he comes from Nigeria..and the same place as my friend Ife...and before all of this shit happened..lunch (3rd period)..was good...i talked to some people (wont mention here)and it was good..very interesting...and i was talking to louis after school..heh that was funny and interesting..he was walking with me n bidania to the train station because we take the same train but in opposite directions...and hes retarded..i never knew me n him had some things in common...heh...and i never knew me n him had something lol..he just came outta nowhere playing around saying me and him use to have something..it was funny..and i wont go into much detail but its just one of those things were u had to be there..then i was coming home and i went to bidanias house and that was cool..but i left like 20 minutes late because it looked like it was gonna rain and it was thundering and as much as i wouldve loved to walk in the rain..im SICK!!!,...and i wanna get better so i went hope before it really started pouring which SUCKED cuz i wanted to walk in it..it wouldve been so much fun but even better if jason was there...he knows how i feel about the rain and other stuff involving that certain thing...heh anyway once i was home for a few minutes it started to really pour.. *sigh* oh how i longed to be outside *looks at window*...well then i fell asleep like an hr l8er until like 8 20 cuz my mom kept bothering me to wake up and go do my hair...so i did...i was really tired...but still...i did it...then i was talking to jason for a while, while i was in the dryer or whatever that machine that gives heat and u put your head in it is called...then i had to get off cuz i was gonna pass the blower on it too...or whatever thats called too..u get the idea..and then i came online a lil while after that i think..or maybe not..i dont remember much after that..ohhh no i think i called jason..and it was after 12 and he said happy birthday to my mom and shit cuz 5.29 is her birthday..so yea i just watched tv for a while after that and then my mom kept bitching so i went to bed..not really..just kinda laid there in the dark thinking...i couldnt sleep..i dont know why..well i cant ever really sleep and i think i have insomnia or however u spell it...its just too many thoughts and i cant sleep..but oh well...ON TO TOMORROW!!!....
TODAY...5.29.03:
well i came into school late as usual and there was this lady talking to my class about what happened yesterday with the lady who got hit by the stool and stuff...later on bidania asked jasmine or viv who the lady was and she said it was a social worker..she was a little annoying but i know where she was coming from...it was like a class discussion since the boys were in our class...geez this is annoying..as if people didnt think the school was bad enough already...i hate this..its not the school thats bad..its a great school which good programs and teachers but its just some kids who have to fucking mess it up for others..its wrong..then that was 1st period..well 2nd period i went to my research class and thats with the teacher whos getting charged..damn..hes so nice too..he shouldnt be getting blamed for anything!!!FUCK EVERYONE!!!...its ironic tho..just these past days..we've been talking about ethics and morals in this class and whats rite and wrong according to everyones opinion and then that happened in that same classroom...well anyway..i went to 3rd period then..which is lunch..and i saw mario..i just smiled at him cuz i saw him looking at me when i was talking with my friends standing up so i just smiled..i hate that..he always looks like he has something to say and always stares at me or whatever and smiles and shit but he doesnt say anything..i hate that..if he has something to say..well say it..WHY DOES HE HAVE TO BE SO FUCKING SHY?!?!...oh well..i find that cute in guys tho..when theyre shy...it makes me wanna talk to them which is how i kinda got to know jason..he told me he would always be shy..but i told him he wouldnt..not if he knew me..and well.look what happened..URE NOT SO SHY ANYMORE RITE?...*sigh* i remember those days...heh...well anyway then i was talking to joeni and davey and and shit and then viv asked me to sit next to her and i didnt wanna leave joeni alone so i asked her to come too...and then me n joeni were reading a magazine together answering this thing to see how alike we are or something like that..and viv kept taking the magazine..i know she was holding it for wandaly or w/e..but god viv..calm down!!!,.....i felt like hitting her with it until she bled badly then shoving it down her throat until she choked and died...but i controlled myself and just acted calmly with her heh..its funny tho..joeni told me that vivian annoys her and vivian tells me joeni annoys her..heh..thats funny..they each annoy each other and they dont know it..and if u read this viv..*speaks slowly*JUST ACT AS IF U..NEVER..READ..ANY..OF THIS..u no u can annoy me cuz i have a bad temper and i dont control it too much but ya know i love ya man..ure always there for me...well 4th period (german) was boring as usual..well not boring..i dunno..but it always makes me so sleepy and i cant stay awake and the teacher's always looking at me and i cant sleep and i cant stay awake so my head falls a lot and its soo tiring..i get a headache from it..its just ms.muenich (the german teacher) just talks on and on with things that dont even have to do with the lesson..i mean..we learn german but we also learn things about her WHOLE FUCKING LIFE!!!...geez..well 5th period was fun cuz i just talk a lot to david then and stuff..its funny...then 6th period we had gym and we've been doing dances..we have to do 23 dances before the school yr ends and we've done 3 so far..i only get gym 3x a week so next week we start on the 4th..so far ive learned a folk dance, and israeli dance and a scottish dance...the folk dancing was easy and so was the scottish dance but the israeli dance was a little confusing..it was a rain dance that they dance to celebrate the rain when it rains...so we did the scottish dance today which was cool...vivian was my partner for the dance and she didnt get it so i had to like say the steps while we were dancing it...its called ROAD TO THE ISLES... and its pretty cool..but anyway then we had to take the test for it after practicing it like 15x!!..but anyway..veronica was my partner..shes pretty cool..doesnt give a fuck about anything but i like her...i like how she dresses and look...she has hair thats really REALLY short in the back and then it gets about as long as her face in the front and its green and black.. and the glues these little horns on her faces which is cool..shes done it before but only with 2 and today she had 3 on her forehead and she has a piercing on the side of her lip and she wears a big ring with it..and yesterday she came to school with like this 3 black thick lines on her forehead and on the chin and they looked like she did it w/ a permanent marker..it was cool tho..i like her..shes unique...but anyway...that was cool..i mustve done the dance like 30 times or more today..first like 10 or more times with viv practicing then 10 times w/ veronica then kenia needed someone who already took the test for the dance to take it with her so i did it...and first it was practice and that was like 10 times then the test and that was another 10..it was fun tho.cant complain too much..i like learning these foreign dances...theyre intesting..well anyway..my 7th period teacher for english was absent and for 8th global too...they were on a trip..so 7th period i had to go to the 6th flooor instead of 8th for english with mr.da silva.. i like him..hes so fun and funny..hes always joking with me..i sorta have a little crush on him tho..tiny tiny tiny tiny lil crush..(dont say anything to anyone b.b. ..not even to me)...so he had us and the senior class (well not class..kids i guess)that were there write a letter to the lady which the thing happened to..so i wrote mine in spanish cuz she was hispanic and so that was confusing..i dont write in spanish that well..i mean i do but still..and that was funny and there was this boy who was a senior which i dunno his name but he kept playing with this big ruler and he almost hit me so i was about to say something and he goes oh im sorry ma but dont worry i wont throw it out the window..and im just said whatever..and then he kept like sitting next to me and looking at me and that was just weird..he reminded of this boy from 8th grade...and then he kept talking to me a bit..he was like ure dominican rite? and a whole bunch of other useless shit..and then i went up to where mr.da silva (Sean) was cuz i was writing down the lady's name for in the letter and he was taking attendance and hes like franki and he said something but i didnt hear him and he was smiling and i was like what..and he was like i just said thank god ure here and im like ooookay and then i was gonna ask him something and hes like yes gorgeous?.. and all this shit like that..hes so nice and sweet..i remember some day i was in mr.susse's office and he asked me something like did ya miss me and hugged me...he hugged me a few times before but still..*sigh*... anyway..lets not get into that..then 8th period i had work to do even tho the teacher was absent..it was a review sheet for some quiz we have tomorrow so i did it so i could do better on it and besides we get credit on our grades for doing it..chris was helping me with that..then me n him were passing notes being retards..it was funny...hes so retarded..lol..*private thoughts come into my head*..lol it was funny...then after 8th i was going to the 7th floor and i saw andrew and he hugged me..he had this nice silk spiderman shirt on..it looks nice on him..i like his hair..its so long and straight and soft and fine heh..i told him i needed to get his number man..me n him need to talk more often...i barely get to and i wanna get to know him...anyway...then after school i hung out with vivian,bidania, and jasmine c. for a while..me n viv went to virgin records and jasmine c and bidania went to walgreens and then joined us in virgin records...its funny cuz vivian is always so hyper and peppy..its sometimes annoying..she has TOO much energy..but shes still nice to talk to..so yea..and then she left and me jasmine c and bidania went to wendys cuz jasmine wanted to buy something and then me n bidania walked to the train station and jasmine takes the bus home so..she didnt come and then some man in the train station asked me if i saw a pencil on the ground cuz he dropped it and his vision wasnt good so if i could look for it so i did and i gave it to him...i felt weird tho..i hope i didnt catch something heh...well then on the L train it was normal as usual..one or two guys here that stand out with like bright shirts heh...but he got off on 6 av. and then on the A train i was very sleepy around the express from 59 to 125 so i kinda fell asleep then i woke up on 145 thinking it was 168..i couldve sworn it was but so anyway i came home and my mom was here and i was surprised cuz me n my sister were gonna surprise her with stuff since its her birthday and all and then my sister was leaving to army p.t. today..like every tuesday,thursday and sometimes saturday..so i gave her money and told her to pick up somethings on the way for my mom..yea and well..ive just been listening to music and playing around on my comp. since then..well not much to write now i think..maybe l8er..i miss jason a lot..i was suppose to see him today cuz of his lil show thingy but its my moms birthday so i had to say no unfortunately..he told me a while ago it was in may and i just forgot it was my moms b-day until yesterday and it ended up being on the same day so i picked my mom...not that ive been doing much..my sis is still in P.T...so nothing will happen until she comes home..anyway..and i cant c him tomorrow either cuz he has some mardi gras shit or something like that at school so i made plans with joeni..we're gonna rollerblade and play with her dog..its this huge girl rotweiler...but im starting to love that dog..she wants to sell it..so if anyones interested...if ur still readin here...im surprised but..well anyway...so we're just gonna hang out..i may get to see jason tho cuz joeni lives 2 blocks away from him..so who knows? *shrugs*...well i wrote too much damn shit but i had a lot to say..well..ima go now..well..off of livejournal heh...so........i love ya jason..dont forget that..
RED RUM!!!! RED RUM!!!! RED RUM!!!*rides away in tricycle*
(if uve seen 'The Shining', ull know what this is about..the only good version is the one with jack nicholson tho..)
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Old. You'll have a long (happy?) life and you'll
die at a very elderly age. Like 80 or
something. Nothing to roll your eyes at, eh?
Probably from a disease or something. You
wanted to die young, because you're a bit of a
slug and don't have many goals, but you never
get what you want.
At what age will you die?
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(took this be4 but never got to post it..well here ya go..ILL BE AN OLD BUM..great..so much to look forward to)
You'd stab them
How would you kill someone
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(i think i would do stab them SEVERAL times..probaly wouldnt get enough of it...)
You kill and eat little children, and probably
molest their corpses.
You're not trying
hard enough, though, because there's still
plenty of assholes in the world! You might go
to Heaven if you can thin the herd a bit. The
Lord hates fuckers hanging around and messing
up His Creation, after all. HOP TO
IT.
Sicko.
Why Will You Go To Hell?
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(i dont just kill CHILDREN...there's lots of other fuckers)
Nicky Dipple--"N" + "d" YOU GET
THE PICTURE?
What's your stripper name? (female)
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(ooookay)
You are 100% straight edge
How straight edge are you?
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(lol...what is up with that guy?lol)
Hottie
What's Your Personality Type?
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(ummm ..whatever)
Angry Goth
What Kind of Goth Are You?
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(..i have reason to be mad at the world...)
Black:
PEOPLE SUCK THE WORLD SUCKS EVERYBODY SHOULD BE
KILLED AND BLEED TO DEATH TILL THE COLD EARTH
SOAKS IN BLOOD. Well, you're angry at the
world. For reasons who knows, but you
definately hate life.
What color do you see the world in?
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(angry at all the idiotic fuckers there are, they can all die for all i care)
Your creativty and craftsmenship doesn't come from
nowhere. You used to be an artisan in your past
life, painting murals, sculpting statues, and
crafting wood for more noble people.
Who were you in your past life?
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(cool..my 'talent' does come from somewhere)
Furious; GRRR DON"T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT
What facial expression are you?
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(w/e)
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I THOUGHT I COULD BE FRIENDS WITH THIS PERSON..TRIED TO BE NICE..BUT THAT DOESNT SEEM TO BE WORKING OUT..THEY SEEM TOO MAD AT THE FACT THAT IM WITH A CERTAIN SOMEONE OR DOING SOMETHING AND THEY WONT EVEN SAY WHAT IT IS..SO IF THAT PERSON READS THIS AND THEY THINK ITS ABOUT THEM THEN JUST GIVE UP THE SHIT...URE NOT RITE ABOUT WHAT U THINK..IM NOT DOING ANY OF THAT..SO LEAVE YOUR TWISTED WORLD BEHIND..(no im not talking about u Chris)...
well im bored..talked to jason around 4 something...i got home too fucking early..i usually get here past 5..DAMMIT...well anyway..now ive stooped back down to quizzes...i was pissed..the really cool website (jason noes)..where i use to take these cool quizzes was changed..the girl didnt wanna make them anymore..DAMN HER!!!..it took me so long to remember my name and password to where i made my website so i can see what the quiz site was and then when i finally did after sooo many months...she said she doesnt make it anymore and made it her own website..its pretty cool tho..i take it she likes photography cuz she makes it look cool...my aunts bf said i should take photography cuz i take good pix that look professional...and well coming from him(since hes a photographer) i think its good..and then theres retarded shit that happens....theres some bitch with no life writing shit on other peoples journals whose name begins with ()...i wont write it here..not yet at least...*sigh*..some people r so scared,they can only write shit...anyway..off the topic of stupid non important things... i got nothing to worry about..i mean...i doubt (if im correct about who it is) that they could beat me up..i mean..my sis is in the army and she trains with them and has a lotta muscles and i can beat her up..well mostly because she taught me some techniques to bring people down and i use it against her..that and i can hit pretty hard..she takes kick boxing and boxing and we box with like no gloves at home..that can hurt sometimes tho heh..DONT TRY IT AT HOME..well...lemme write down stuff here i guess...lj is kinda stupid sometimes..its really retarded but im being a hypocrite..i use it..only because like the rest of these losers who use it..i have nothing better to do but i do have other things to do which is why i dont really write on it as much as OTHER *looks around,focuses on a certain person* people do...well now about important better stuff..i was with jason yesterday..YAY...that was a good day...it was very fun as always..and well 'stuff' (u no what im talking about B.B.) happened...and we just got to be together...so it was great heh..its amazing..im thinking now about how stupid people are..and i wont lie i no ive been too..i had actually gotten jealous over jason talking to lisette before..lol i cant fucking believe i did..i look at it now and i just think..why the fuck did i??...its like i shouldnt even had then...i mean jason told me he doesnt like her like that and doesnt even really talk to her all that much..and well i dont think shes his type anyway..but u no..when a girl gets with your man it gets u jealous... u know what im talking about B.B....and well i cant believe i did...hes not even attracted to her heh..people r so stupid sometimes...im glad it doesnt bother me anymore...but he noes he cant talk too much either..he gets jealous even thinking about me talking to another guy..but i only love u jason and u no that...well..lemme take some quizzes now...too bored..talking to viv about her guys and shit...lol well...
*flies aways into the sky*
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You are GIR. You are... completely insane... and,
quite possibly, the most lovable creature in
the universe. Whether you're screaming and
running into things, making soap with bacon,
watching mindless television programs, or
devouring everything in sight, there's no
question about it--you are filthy with
cuteness... like a baby... except... metal.
The Greatest, Most Advanced Invader Zim Character Profiling Quiz EVER!!!
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You are a goddess!
Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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You are Trinity, from "The Matrix."
Strong, beautiful- you epitomize the ultimate
heroine.
What Matrix Persona Are You?
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You are Bob Marley!
Who are you?
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What Is Your Animal Personality?
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You come from the Ocean. You've always been drawn
to the sea, the sound of the waves, the crystal
blue water, near the sea is where you belong.
Where Did Your Soul Originate?
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You're A Hentai Baka (Stupid Pervert)!
You watch a lot of porn, and can be found hiding in
the tool shed, peeking through a hole, into the
girl's locker room. You get smacked a lot,
don't you?...
What Type Of Anime Character Are You?
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(lol that ones funny..hehe not me *nervous laugh*)
Seductive Flirt
What Kind of FLIRT are you?
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well im talking to jason now and its 12 40 but he says i should go to sleep ..do it for him he says so i guess i will..ill finish my convo and go.and well i was with him today so u can understand my mood....LOVE YA SEXY...muah...
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hmm..lets see whats happened..friday ife (my friend) was practically raping me in art..that was funny..it was cuz wandaly likes grabbing people's legs when they walk up the stairs so she and i did that and hes like ohhh fine so outta like nowhere when im about to sit down he jumps on top on me and im on the table laughing my ass off and hes like humping my thigh or something lol..it was funny ..u just had to be there..then i saw jason and well u know stuff happened that i cant mention here cuz its like porno..lol sat i was alone all day until 9 47pm..it was soooo boring..well not THAT boring..i got chances to ummm..well u no do 'stuff'...then saturday i went to see my grandma in the hospital..shes much better..theyre letting her go back home today..wednesday...so thats good shes been wanting to go back home..but i think the heart attack and almost dying changed her cuz well shes sooo nice and calm now...but shes still crazy funny like everyone else in my family...not that its a bad thing..my grandpa is still like sorta in a coma but now hes just on the oxygen machine..he still doesnt talk and he has his eyes open but the doctors say he cant really c anything...it was nice to see him tho i hadnt seen him in a while...then i went to cost co with my aunt and her bf and my mom...that was fun..i like stores like that i dunno y,...its fun tho..she told us shes waiting for her pregnancy results..she has a miscarriage a few months ago and well today i found out she is pregnant..thats good..she had gotten a little depressed from the miscarriage and she only has one son so thats good...and i dont remember monday so when i do ill write about that...and well yesterday i saw jason...yaya *big smile*...we got back together..he is so sweet..he told me he doesnt wanna make me regret being with him..and well other stuff happened too that i cant mention here cough porno cough hehe and well its like we spend almost an hour always saying bye cuz we just hug and hold each other for a while and kiss and keep telling each other i love u and its like i dont want him to go and he doesnt wanna go...WHY DONT U HAVE YOUR OWN HOUSE?!?!...hehe soon my dear soon....lol anyway..its like 12 09 and im talking to jason and well ill continue this tomorrow...so bye bye
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